On The Celebration Of The Resurrection
“Jesus said ‘I am the way, the truth and the light, no man cometh unto the father but my me’ Gospel of John” [sic]
I knew it was coming, but I still did a tiny double take when John 14:6 popped up as an unrelated comment on an Instagram post of mine from a few weeks back. That post was of a three card Goddess pull I had made – no God or divinity related hashtags, no reference to Christ or Christianity. I still can’t figure out why this was the place the comments began. It was an interesting choice. Maybe it was selected because in some ways it offered one of those extra layers of anonymity that the Internet allows.
But I got the point.
Me & Abraham
“What is the standard of review applicable to a motion for summary judgment?”
I am afraid to try to answer because I am certain that I will throw up if I open my mouth. I didn’t review this. What were the odds they would ask this – rather than something related to the applicable facts or the pertinent cases?
His name was Bob, and legend has it I made sure he went everywhere with us.
Bob went to the market and Bob went to Nana’s house. I even made mom buckle Bob in.
Imaginary friends are important, you know.
Learning to Walk on Water
I’ll just cut to the chase.
My CA125 is 12.5.
“Normal” is anything under 20.
My cancer is in remission.
Do Not Fear
Its been a long ten or so days. I tried to sum it all up for y'all in an incredibly long post over the weekend, and then the internet ate it. Long story very, very short: things did not go as expected following my post-chemo CT exam.
Its been a little while, and there are lots of reasons for that. I've been juggling being back at work more with an unexpected preliminary read of my post-chemo CT scan. I will get into that more as I know more, but for now I'll tell you that Dr. McGuire has labeled my disease as "stable" as there appear to be no changes from my mid-point CT and this most recent one.
Still I Will Trust You
"Don't you understand, now? Don't you see why you had to walk this road alone?"
And finally - finally - I did.
Are You There God? Its Me, Kaity.
"For months I have been assuming that it was just other people that I don't trust anymore." I hear the words coming without really understanding that it is my mouth speaking them. "So my world keeps getting smaller. Now, 90% of the time its just me, Hope, and God."
I recognize that I just admitted that I am isolating in front of my sponsor.
On Shattering & Gold
"Okay look, I've been praying the same thing for months now, and while I think I know what you're telling me, I just really need an obvious sign. So if you wouldn't mind, it would really, really help me if you could just give me a clear signal this one time. Let me know if I'm hearing you right."
"So much happened, almost all at once. It just seems like its too much for one human to bear."
"It is," she responds, tears in her own eyes. "Its the only way for us to shatter completely, to really transform. By God's awful grace in delivering that much pain at one time."